Miss Understood

Hey Bloggers,

Wow, it feels like just yesterday I was seeing who could jump off the swings farther. It seems like yesterday I felt the playground sand in my toes. It seems like just yesterday I kissed a new boy every week by the monkey bars against there will.

 Wow, It feels like just this morningI woke up to my first day if middle school to realize my old friends abandoned me. It feels like just this morning I walked the halls all by myself and cried. It feels like just this morning I realized people hurt people… and that I had to grow up.

It’s a shame. Being put through all that crap… I had to grow up so early. Okay, so I didnt have a child hood with a house filled with drugs and abuse like other kids in the world did… but once middle school came, the emotional stress made me realize that the world can suck so i had to grow up. I guess it can benifit me. Now, I’m responsible (with people) and I take care of things when people need help. I’m not stupid like some girls in my grade are (though I unintentionally act like I am around boys).

But I also don’t get to have so much fun. I’m taking care of everyone and I am too scared to have too much fun. I feel like I grew up too fast and I cant enjoy life. Why did I have to go and do that?

It’s wierd though…. I mean, I know I can be so mature… but I am in fact still growing. I mean, I’ve been through NOTHING compared to what is to come. Life is too confusing for me to figure out.

That was kind of an abstract entry… hope you all got that…

cause after all… I am

-Miss Understood

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